As you may know, I have applied for university this year. It is one of my lifelong goals, to attend university, get a first, then a masters then eventually a PHD. I had given myself 10 years to fulfil this dream.
However, it seems like I have already hit a stumbling block. I applied for my student finance and they have agreed to give me a £7,000 maintenance loan but they will not give me a fee loan. Nor will they give me any grants or bursaries. I don't understand this. I have not studied at university before and I'd thought it was pretty standard that your first degree would be covered by a loan.
It seems that since my partner earns a cushy wage, I'm entitled to the square route of sod all!
It's hard work trying to make something of oneself! It seems that no matter what I do someone always has a foot on my head trying to drown me!
My dad always used to say to me that I might as well just rob a bank. If I got caught, I'd go to prison, get 'rehabilitated' offered an education, free roof over my head, free food, possibly even a job. If I get away with it, I'll have all the money to do with as I please! It's a win win situation!
I don't want my Bipolar Disorder to define my life. Nor do I wish to be defined by my roots! I want to be my own person and not the person the "man" says I ought to be!
As you can see, this is more of a ranting blog than an informative one. I'm still sore from my disastrous holiday and just not quite feeling the release my blog provides me!
Please stay faithful loyal fans and I will try my best to set myself right again!!
I'm going to see the doctors soon (maybe)!
Keep Smiling :(:
Even if I'm not!